Saturday, 3 February 2018


she hate herself, always.


she think and calm....

Tuesday, 9 January 2018


so today, im going to talk about- 'if i have boyfriend or partner in life',
when someone ask me why you have a boyfriend?
i am going to say that i have a boyfriend because i have a boyfriend. hahahaha.

honestly if someone really did ask me if I had one would be because, I want to be loved. sounds quite shitty fact  right? i have been loved with my beloved family but this is the different case. but i just did. being loved by someone is quite good you know. having someone to talk with, someone to accompany you walk at night to release your stress over a hectic day. I really felt blessed. But when something bad come up. It's sucks. That feeling when you just hate him so much over something small like jealousy. You just miss him so much but both of you are too ego. Then, it is not hard to say that you  may break up. Ego is the most sucks things in our mind. Ego ruin everything. But, we can't blame our ego cause that is the fact as a human being. Being selfish in relationship is also sucks. At the end of the story, we need to learn to understand each other. It is the most important thing. 

Missing someone that now just a stranger to you felt like world have changed. Stranger with memories.Ttoo much memories created but there's no other way than moving on.
Moving on is the hardest thing do. Some people take weeks, some people take months, and some just don't.
but you'll be fine! Absolutely. :)

And tbh, my partner for life couldn't a human. he just can't! ;(
hahahaha. well games are my boyfriends. see that!!! got a lot of boyfriends. it's games. it's plural okay. game's'. hahahaha, seems too psycho over here. but i think games does help me to chill myself over something. like moba,dota,coc,paladin, minecraft, bully,warcraftIII,yuri and all strategy game and everything. no lie!! i cursed a lot playing those. Really helped me too just say out loud. No big deal. Just killing the squad and i got the victory. mvp and master all the time thou yeah. Really a good gamer. because game is my boyfriend so we have a good chemistry going on.

who is your boyfriend?

This talk based on experience.


Friday, 5 January 2018


'' The more i know you, the more i like you. Let me know you more.''

Tuesday, 2 January 2018


moi favorite life advice,

Always be the best person you can be. Be kind even when you are tired. Be understanding even when you're angry. Do more than you're asked, and don't ask for anything in return. Don't silently expect anything either. Listen when someone talks, and really listen too, stop just thinking of how you'l reply. Tell people that you love then and that you appreciate them. Go out of your way to do things for people. Be the greatest person can possibly be and when you mess up, make up for it in the next moment or minute or day. One thing you should never do? Never spend your time trying to prove to anybody that you're great, your actions will speak for themselves and we only have limited time on this earth, don't waste it. If someone doesn't see your light, don't worry. Like moths, good people are attracted to flame and to light, and they will come.


Monday, 1 January 2018


we can smile even though we are hurting,
we can feel happy even though we are unhappy.

this called strength.


Saturday, 30 December 2017


The starts are special bright today, looking so beautiful inside my eyes. But im sad looking at the stars cause it remind me the people who leave me like the starts do. we won't see the same starts everyday.


Can you promise me to stay by my side me forever. You don't know how much you are mean to me. Every people that come in my life is so special. You are special. Very special. I like you to stay. I like you.  I like you more than an ice cream, and i really like an ice cream. Promise to always take care of you so you wont leave me, chingu?

promise and stay.

Wednesday, 27 December 2017


This 2017.

To the one who came in my life.
To the one who teach me a lot of things.
To the one who brings me to the right path.
To the who who realize me life is not about love only.
To the one who always give me strength to not give up.
To the one who i care about.
To the one who tell me everything will be okay.
To the one who give me a lot of motivation that i can do it.
To the one who make me laugh all day long.
To the one who forget that i am in pain.
To the one who so kind to me.
To the one who comfort me.
To the one that i love.
To the one who give me spirit.
To the one who want to know me.
To the one who never left.
To the one who sincere to be with me.
To the one who patient with my attitude.
To the one who accept my flaws.
To the one who said i am pretty.
To the one who said i am cute.
To the one who cooks delicious food for me.
To the one who give me very enough money.   
To the one who broke my heart.
To the one who left me behind.
To the one who go far from me.
To the one who like when i am not in good situation.
To the one who like to see my flaws so much.
To the one who see negative side inside me a lot rather than positive one.
To the one who make me to hate my life.
To the one who hate me the most.
To the one who cannot see i am happy.
To the one who never want me to stay alive.
To the one who never treat me well.
To the one who made me sad.
To the one that not believe in me.
To the one who come when im strong and left when im weak.
To the one make me down in my studies.
To the one who make me everything looks bad.
To everything.
To all that praise.
To everything that teach me to be a better person.
To everything that so memorable.
To every tears.
To every happiness.
To every sweet sour moment.

I want to thank you 'the one' for everything. Thank you for everything. Thank you. Honestly, i do love this year so much.  Thank you for always support me. I am blessed with everything i have. I don't deserve all this. Thank you so much. I just want to thank you. Thank you for creating me of who i am to be right now.

Alhamdulillah for everything.
see you in 2018.
thank you. :)

Friday, 13 October 2017


i'm in love with the one that i never meet before.
how can i easily in love with him? we like each other. i like him first. haha. its been a long time ago i didn't talk about my love life with other. my heart become heartless sometimes before. i was kid still can't think wisely. but because of that kind of time i become heartless until yeah..

i'm afraid to be in love.
i'm afraid to be love by others.

but now,
everything has change. i don't expect that this year i open up my heart until i become this crazy. the most crazy thing is i'm in love with guy that i never meet. we just know through game. love is crazy. love is blind. no i'm not going to talk about him.

god bless me.

Tuesday, 5 September 2017


sometimes  you  don't want  to  study.
sometimes  you  don't  want   to  finish  your  homework.
sometimes  you  give up  to  achieve  your dreams.
sometimes  you  think  that  you  are  in  the  wrong  place.
sometimes  you  think  that  you  don't  belong  here.
sometimes  you  think  you  cannot  do  this.

you are tired.
you are tired with this life.
you are tired.

but now, think. where are you right now?
dalam masa kau berfikir kau tak boleh , dalam masa kau kata itu ini. dalam masa kau mengeluh dengan kehidupan kau yang payah kononnya tu, tapi kau perasan tak kau sedang berjalan. kau sedang melalui jalan kejayaan yang kau nak sendiri. kau dah nak dekat berjaya?


don't think to much. please.
just focus on what you are doing and try to love in everything you do. keep move on. keep walking as far as you can. keep run as fast as you can. keep trying. If you fail many times. it's okay. it's okay. Let me tell you that it's okay.

trust and believe in yourself.

Monday, 4 September 2017

new me

2 years ago are totally different from now.

long time no see dear blogger.

ehem, insyaAllah aku mula menulis dari harini. aku dah kemas kemas blog aku ni. Mulai harini aku nak kongsi apa apa yang aku rasa aku perlu kongsi. aku nak luah apa apa yang aku rasa aku nak luah. aku nak cerita apa apa yang aku rasa aku nak cerita. kita santai-santai. Tapi dah dua tahun aku berhenti menulis sebab masuk asrama.Skill menulis aku pun mungkin dah hilang sikit demi sikit. Aku punya ayat BM pun dah tunggang langgang. yelah dulu belajar bahasa melayu semata-mata nak dapat A je masa SPM. hehehe, oh yah,  mungkin korang pun dah lupa kewujudan aku di sini. aku hiatus selama 2 tahun. aku dah buang semua entry yang tak matang dulu. jap ni entry test je. hehe

bye. (eee bencinya baca ayat sendiri)

Sunday, 7 June 2015

world is busy now

''Be who you are NOT who the world wants YOU to be"

long time no see . Sudah lama tak update blog tak cuci bersih dan sapu blog ni . Terbengkalai setelah Yana dapat masuk sekolah asrama ni. Ikutkan after pt3 ni nak berblogging 24 jam . Kan kan kan. Tapi padahnya , nasib menyebelahi daku. Lol merepek makan keperek dah ni . -.-''

    Apa-apa pun . Yana dah follow orang yang suruh follow balik. Yana sudah singgah hampir semua blog yang yana follow . Banyak dah yana tak  follow story life korang ~~ mengapa beginiiii .. Plus thank you sesiapa yang sudi lagi follo blog hampa ni .. Ingatkan dah takdak siapa da yang x ingin nak singgah blog ni ha ! berhabuk banyak busuk lagi.. 


     huaaa ! cuti lah sangat .. eh tapi memang becuti pun .. hmm , kat sekolah memang dak pikiaq da apa nak buat sama blog sama rutin harian semua.. Last last satu hapaaa pun tak jadi .. HAPRAAKK.. tidoq makan tidoq makan je tahu.. doh kenapa eden dok kecek pelbagai loghat.. Main cakap.. malas nak tekan backspace. Jauh bebeno...~~

    Apa-apaun .. life must go on. Kan ~ I need your support . Give me your stregth ! kawe dah takdak power... bantai je laa.. :) we also need to smile like how Luhan and D.O smile ! aww..

     Talk about EXO. weeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyy ! dah banyak kawe x tahu dah ni.. adakah bagus atau tidak atau bagus ? bagi kawe semestinya tak bagus laaaaa ~,~ . takpelah mereka tu semua palsu... ehh nooooo ~ manada . Hahahaha.

    Talk about life. Yeaaaaaaaaah , Alhamdulillah everything is okay and harap kekal okay begini lah.. T.T

    Talk about FOOD. Auuuuuuuum.. i love food but why im being fat day by day.. plus im too lazzyy to berjogging. lol Bahasa ibunda bertarabuh terburai.. Padahal dah banyak kali dah buat karangan pasai BAHASA JIwA BANGSA BLA BLA bla....

    Talk about friends . shhhhhhhhhhhhhh . i still hope they dont forget my ugly face plus poyo attitude.. Jebal . #,#

     Talk about new friends. Aaaawww . they all so sweet and kind to me terutamanya Hazimah . ceh ceh .. kawe tak mok kasik tahu diaq la yang kawe duk sibuk tulis namo dia kat sini. kembang hidung kanng..

    Talk about world ? where is earth ? saya sudah tidak tahu manasatu bumi . :(

     Talk about sleep ? yes nak tidoq. malam pun dah malam dah ni..

SO.. (:

Assalamualaikum and goodnight  Awak :)

Saturday, 25 October 2014

trying to know the truth life.

A best friend knows you're sad.
A best friend knows you're mad.
A best friend knows you're crying.
A best friend knows you're lying.

yow my lovely readers..
At this age,
Everything is changing .
Day by day we don't notice , but just look back over the past year
You will realize everything has.
People you thought were gping to be there forever aren't ,
And ,
People you never imagined you did be speaking to are now some of your CLOSET FRIENDS
Life makes little sense,
And ,
The more we grow the less sense it will makes kan ?
So make the most of it right now,

Before it all changes once again , (you
gonna said beb)
cause in the near ,
All of this is only going to be your memories :)